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elishacat

August 10th, 2006

Current Mood:

confused

Oh, boy.

I can't believe what I did last night. How she felt, how eager she was to please me, worship me... how good she made me feel...

And I loved it, and I think I love her... we shared a lot, I learned a lot about her...

but

still, who she is... I mean, I don't know why this is bugging me as much as it does. It's not exactly like I haven't done this before, stolen (in a way) someone from someone else. Specifically who I'm stealing her from.

But this time, I don't know.

Maybe it's because I'm older?

This is the first time I think I've actually loved the one I've stolen.

I still love my Jen, and FFerret, and Sarny, but...

She's different. For one thing... she's related to me now.

For another...

I don't know.

I shouldn't even be talking about this.

I'm afraid of last night happening again.

I want last night to happen again...