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elishacat

December 31st, 2006

Current Mood:

sad

crying myself silly packing up today, and watching the movers haul away the furniture and boxes to the new place

I didn't mention that... but details later, suffice to say, I'm moving today out of the little cottage I'd fallen in love with, into a much larger place with Caydin and my other bf Mark and my sis Kitrina...

knowing that Cay is going to be gone for a while with her tribe and I won't be seeing her...

hurt more to pack her things up

and all the memories

shar and sarny over to give me their opinions

aiko... with all the wonderful things she gave me

all of it

and I'll miss it

but there is always tomorrow

i love all you, my friends, who warmed that place and made it so special

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elishacat

December 29th, 2006

You're so very special to me, in a few ways I can never have hope to express to you in person.

I know you agonize when you're not with me; you made that clear to me tonight...

I also appreciate you knowing that I must be shared with Caydin, with Jenevive, with Sarny... and are willing to work with that.

You do make me feel pampered and I like it.

I've always wanted to be someone's tributed lady. I really have. I've never had that before. I'm usually in things as equals.

Don't get me wrong, we're equals too, but...

I don't know.

I'm still all knotted up inside trying to figure out what to say right

but I do love you too...

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elishacat

December 25th, 2006

Meowy Catmas everyone!!! =^_^=

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elishacat

December 17th, 2006

Current Mood:

content

When a human you half-know is into you enough that they willingly undergo an I'm-sure painful transformation into a white tiger...

How am I to interpret that?

He's nice and very conversational and intelligent and fun to be with when I'm in the sort of mood to want to be with someone of his nature.

He also clearly understands the cat nature.

On another note, today has been the first day I've needed to wear my coat. Yes, I know I have fur. It's redundant. But I also look strange walking around amongst the humans wearing my customary shorts or skirts or whatnot. I may have black fur and whiskers but I don't want to be -that- much of a standout. Strange as it is I actually kinda blend in like this.

It was snowing a little at my house this morning when I got up... actually, it started last night when Caydin and I went to bed, and luckily hasn't stuck (so far).

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elishacat

December 12th, 2006

Current Mood:

mischievous

Yay to Caydin, for thinking of something I hadn't thought of and then showing me where I could get it. Heehee :)

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elishacat

December 11th, 2006

Current Mood:

frustrated

I...
have no idea what to get Sarny for Catmas. Christmas. Foxmas? Whichever.

O.o

Caydin is taken care of. And OH MY GODS, she... wow. We traded early presents last night... she gave me this absolutely gorgeous bracelet; it's gold (and heavy enough to be real gold) with a band of onyx set with clusters of diamonds down the center... it's so beautiful, I cried...

kinda makes what I got her for her early gift seem goofy and cheap by comparison ... a beanbag chair with fish printed all over it. But she loved it and immediately plopped it down in the living room and took over it. :) so

but... foxes are another matter, what the hell do I get him?

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elishacat

December 7th, 2006

Current Mood:

jubilant

I FOUND MY MITTENS!!!

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elishacat

December 7th, 2006

Current Mood:

chipper

Sailed in my first for-real challenge qualification race last night, for the AYC.

I won two of the seven or so races, but...

There's this thing, a fascinating thing, called Right of Way, that kitty seems to be having problems wrapping her kitty brain around. Sorry to all I fouled. I'm still getting the hang of this.

I understand the scoring is forthcoming later today. I'm not expecting to have qualified for the series :P But I had fun nonetheless.

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elishacat

December 7th, 2006

ooo it's snowing :)

looks like I found my mittens just in time :)

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elishacat

December 2nd, 2006

Current Mood:

contemplative

i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
i do it just because i want to
because I want to

everything i do is judged
and they mostly get it wrong
but oh well
'cuz the bathroom mirror has not budged
and the woman who lives there can tell
the truth from the stuff that they say
and she looks me in the eye
and says would you prefer the easy way?
no, well o.k. then
don't cry

and i wonder if everything i do
i do instead
of something i want to do more
the question fills my head
i know that there's no grand plan here
this is just the way it goes
and when everything else seems unclear
i guess at least i know

i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
i do it just because i want to
because I want to

- Ani DiFranco, 'Joyful Girl'

hooooly crap

elishacat

December 2nd, 2006

Current Mood:

jubilant

[18:54] Start Line (2 Way): Race Results:
[18:54] Start Line (2 Way): 1: Elisha Paklena - +00:09:35
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): 2: Aislin Keynes - +00:11:05
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): 3: Cory Copeland - +00:11:45
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): 4: - +00:12:15
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Lap Times:
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Eugene Sodwind-- lap 0: -00:00:01
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Cory Copeland-- lap 0: -00:00:01
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Elisha Paklena-- lap 0: +00:00:08
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Aislin Keynes-- lap 0: +00:00:11
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Elisha Paklena-- lap 1: +00:09:35
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Aislin Keynes-- lap 1: +00:11:05
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Cory Copeland-- lap 1: +00:11:45
[18:55] Start Line (2 Way): Eugene Sodwind-- lap 1: +00:12:15

in short...
I won!

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elishacat

December 2nd, 2006

I want you back in my life.

I miss you.

Me and Caydin, a little punky :)

elishacat

November 27th, 2006

Me and Cay
Originally uploaded by elishakitty.

Aren't we cute? =^_^= she really does make me happy, in exactly the same way my other loves do, only I tend to see her more -- she lives with me! :)

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elishacat

November 26th, 2006

Current Mood:

blah

Catnapping aboard Ujyalo Dawn.

Boredom relief by sudden impromptu threeway pickup race between myself, Tristin, and a two-handed tako crewed by Pensive and Lehua.

I miss Caydin. She had to work.

I miss... no. It's enough to say missing is easy, forgetting is hard, and loving is always.

I was good. I went to Dazzle and only bought one thing. My purse is still mostly full.

I feel bad for my brother. I know he's not eating. I know he misses her too.

I feel so uncentered. I want to nail myself to the ground. I want to run far, far away.

I can go to my roof and sit, that's a little away, and familiar.

I can go to Evolving's and sleep. She has a place for me still.

I could go to Crimsonheart's, but I can't.

I can go back to the Ujyalo Dawn and sleep in the bunk there, and if I want to go elsewhere hell, throw off the lines and sail there.

What is so damn wrong with me? I feel like I want to crawl out of my own skin, like I want to take off and fly and keep flying and just never come back.

But I'd be missing and leaving too much behind, the gentle smile I sleep next to... and never could.

Bah.

Caydin sitting on my roof at sunrise

elishacat

November 7th, 2006

Caydin sitting on my roof at sunrise
Originally uploaded by elishakitty.

She took this for me somehow, but I wanted to share it.

We are defined in part by the friends we keep... if Caydin, along with everyone else I know, is any indicator, I think I'm doing just fine...

love you hon :*

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elishacat

November 6th, 2006

Current Mood:

grateful

You are better as my friend, than you were as my girlfriend. I thank Bast that I realized this in time to agree with you, and I love you for making me realize this as well.

I never wanted anyone else in my life to come between us; I love you too much for that.

I am so blessed to have you in my life and happy you have no intention of leaving. I love you.

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elishacat

October 29th, 2006

Oooo
is bed shopping time! eeheeheehee *giggles deviously*

I need to go home first and measure my bedroom -- I'd still like room to walk around after it goes in :P

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elishacat

October 28th, 2006

Current Mood:

amused

Human humor is so funny :)

http://bogus.com/cat-herders.mov

But it's ok, because I was laughing too =^_^=

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elishacat

October 27th, 2006

HEE hee hee hee...

*purrs and snuggles back into her couch*