(no subject)

elishacat

November 26th, 2006

Current Mood:

blah

Catnapping aboard Ujyalo Dawn.

Boredom relief by sudden impromptu threeway pickup race between myself, Tristin, and a two-handed tako crewed by Pensive and Lehua.

I miss Caydin. She had to work.

I miss... no. It's enough to say missing is easy, forgetting is hard, and loving is always.

I was good. I went to Dazzle and only bought one thing. My purse is still mostly full.

I feel bad for my brother. I know he's not eating. I know he misses her too.

I feel so uncentered. I want to nail myself to the ground. I want to run far, far away.

I can go to my roof and sit, that's a little away, and familiar.

I can go to Evolving's and sleep. She has a place for me still.

I could go to Crimsonheart's, but I can't.

I can go back to the Ujyalo Dawn and sleep in the bunk there, and if I want to go elsewhere hell, throw off the lines and sail there.

What is so damn wrong with me? I feel like I want to crawl out of my own skin, like I want to take off and fly and keep flying and just never come back.

But I'd be missing and leaving too much behind, the gentle smile I sleep next to... and never could.

Bah.