((liferafting from Posterous))
I am a cat who sometimes appears as a neko. I am a girl. I like to sail, build, explore, converse, fly, and defy conventional expectations. I am loved by those who love me and I love them for putting up with me - befriending a cat takes skill and patience. I live most of my virtual life in the East River Community of Second Life. I also really, really like tuna.
How could you miss someone who broke your heart? I not only broke your heart...I broke my promise of never hurting you.All I want is something I don't know if you can give me. Forgiveness. The problem I'm having is I can't forgive myself. I can't forgive me.I'm sorry.
You, dammit.I... was wrong.I let... the old us get the better of me, in the name of trying to say that the old us didn't bother me anymore. Clearly I was wrong.So.I eat crow for what I did, said, and how I acted to you the other week. And I want you back. Even if just to talk. Even if just to go shopping with. I can limit myself. I can have you for just a friend without thinking of all that we were before... it seems distant, aI've meditated on it for hours and hours and just... maybe I deadened myself to it but I don;t... please don't take this the wrong way, Aiko. I want you back as my friend, nothing more... and I can live with that.
I can't forgive you if I can't see you to tell you.Come find me.Please.
ReplyDeleteHow could you miss someone who broke your heart? I not only broke your heart...I broke my promise of never hurting you.All I want is something I don't know if you can give me. Forgiveness. The problem I'm having is I can't forgive myself. I can't forgive me.I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteYou, dammit.I... was wrong.I let... the old us get the better of me, in the name of trying to say that the old us didn't bother me anymore. Clearly I was wrong.So.I eat crow for what I did, said, and how I acted to you the other week. And I want you back. Even if just to talk. Even if just to go shopping with. I can limit myself. I can have you for just a friend without thinking of all that we were before... it seems distant, aI've meditated on it for hours and hours and just... maybe I deadened myself to it but I don;t... please don't take this the wrong way, Aiko. I want you back as my friend, nothing more... and I can live with that.
ReplyDeletemiss who elisha? *blinks as she disappears again...a mere shadow*
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